Lost Soul

I cannot wait for school to be over. This semester has been so stressful, so bad I had to drop a class. I just couldnt take it, and I still cant. Im counting down the weeks. I feel like Ive been missing for so long. I guess Ive been busy with school and work. Especially working, Ive been working for five days straight. Tireding but I really need the money for mom, phone bill I have to pay now, and a new mp3 player. Yeah my zune is dead and gone, or well on its way. Guess Its time for a change for new things to come into my life. Out with the old, In with the new right?
Ive been distant lately and I like it like that. Never been to open and out there. I miss being reserved and not having a million and one things on my mind. And to keep some people wondering I guess. Alot of my friends have been telling me to focus on things and stop stressing over nothing. I know Ill sound like such a freak for saying this but I tend to think about sex all the damn time. I mean its on my mind twenty-four seven. I try to put my head somewhere else but I cant. Its actually quite aggravating. Mostly because Its something I cant have. I feel so pathetic and weak. I mena before my experiences sex was almost never on my mind, but now I feel like an addict. If I found someone I would probably want to do it all the damn time. Ugh. Sometimes I wish I were the old me, I feel like Ive changed. People have also told me Im different now. I guess how I act and stuff. Im going to get back to me from this moment. Lifes way to short to waste. My mom just found out one of her co-workers has cancer. Its so sad things happen unexpectedly and so fast we dont even know how to grasp it. This news made me feel even more down and out, and just taught me to appreciate life. No ones promised tomoro. My prayers go out to her and her family and I pray that shell pull through.