"Littlest Things"

Megan Fox. Is a Fox. Love her.Want her. Be Her. If Only.

Ok so I havent been on this blog as much as i hoped too. Ive been so bust these past few weeks its crazy. I was even thinking about quitting school. I know, I was thinking about it, didnt do it. Its just that its getting incredibly hard, and theres so much to keep up with, and study. I felt like I couldnt do it, like I was going t explode. Then I cooled off, and realized Im not the only one struggling in this world. Schools hard, but so is life so I guess I have to get used to that. What else has happened. Oh I was asked out but someone Im not remotely interested in. Sorry but If im going to go out, It has to be someone Im interested in, and attracted too. Very attrtacted too. I also got an internship with the Source magazine. I know theyre still alive lol. Its pretty cool and that all Im going to say about that. Lets see where it takes me. So far Ive been to two parties for magazines, and got a little tipsy. oops. I think I should stop drinking. Im definately a liteweight. I cannot hold my liquor for the life of me. Ive also been getting into alot of Hip-Hop. Pretty weird actually Im freaking out. Ive downloaded so much this week, and I was even ready to download The Dreams new album. I know but I was intruiged by what everyone at the source was saying. Didnt go through with it though. Nothing else has happened. Oh. I saw my ex and their entire family. Yay! just what i needed a trip down fucking memory lane. Im not as hurt as I was before. Time does heal. I guess Im healing in my own sad pathetic way. I still tend to reminisce but thats to be expected. After all I am human. I hate when people are like oh get over it, and stop thinking about it, or writing about it. Its different for you if youve never been in my situation. People only know half of the shit I told them. Theres things thats going to take me a while to get over. I dont want to tell anyone because either their tired of hearing about it, or theyre too busy. Its ok though. No one understands me, and thats how it been my entire life. Wont be so bad to continue that way. Until I meet that one person that can change my mind....maybe.