Party In The U.S.A

I feel like such a bad person right now. Im so tired of hearing about guys. Well not guys, but my friends who go on and on about there boyfriends. more specifically my friend ingrid. I mean dont get me wrong im happy for her. Its her first boyfriend, so I know how that is. You cant stop going on and on about him, but I dont think I was that into him, where our whole 2hour convo would be bout him. if I was then shoot me in the fucking head now for talking shit lol. Is this the most important thing now, guys. I mean of course they are for a million and one reasons ;), but theyre not everything. Dont we come first? Its like we put theyre feelings first before our own. Well at least I did that, and I still do. I need to stop that. geez. i sound so pathetic lol. lord save me.



-I love Miley Cyrus's new song Party in the usa. Just think it would sound way better if someone else was singing it lol

Tears In Heaven

Im blogging when I should be doing my poetry homework. Oh whatever Its been too long and Im getting bored with school already. Couldnt wait for it to start now I cant wait for my next day off. Last few weeks have been very hard. Been trying to move ahead and not look back at certain things or people but no matter what I do it seems things have a way of catching up to me, and I give in like a weak pathetic girl. Its sad because I know Im better than that. I know Im stronger than I know. Im just looking for it and want to see it already. Its hard to focus on things that I should be focusing on and its so hard to concentrate. People have made me so mad this week I just wanted to be alone. I still do. Walking home I found myself crying.....the crazy part is I dont know what I was crying for. I guess we cry because we have too. Its the only thing that makes sense and one of the only ways to release alot of stress and insecurities. Well for me anyway. Geez lemme stop pourng my worthless heart out and get back to writing this paper. Lord help me with school. Im going to need it

Forever

I am forever yours, and you are forever mine. The love we share is pure, honest, and surreal. The kind of love we only witness on television. The kind of love we daydream about. With you here next to me nothing else matters. The constant beat of your heart makes my body tremble. The taste of your sweet lips intoxicates me. You're all I ever wanted, and now that I have you I dont want to ever let you go. A manifestation of my dreams. My very own prince. My very own fairytale. Memories fade into the background of past romance. With lust then, not love. I am yours now. I am forever yours, and you are forever mine. I am only yours, and you are only mine. For now. For long. Forever.

Forever.

-Kaycee N. Alston-

-This is what work brings out of me. Poetry. I guess thats good. My professor at school said true poets are the ones who can really write anywhere. The ones that get a good line in their head and jot it down. I hope Im one of them. I write alot about how I feel. However this wasn't about anyone in particular. Just felt like writing about love. Lame right. Whatever I believe in it. People dont make those damn songs for nothing. Its just this emotion i really want to feel with someone one day. Guess im to shut down from alot to open up to it. One day Ill meet that person that will change my views. Believe.

What Ive been up to?

1. working as a slave

2. back in school, busy studying.

3. Catchin up w/ mom

4. hangin out with friends from wrk.

5. downloadin alottttt of musica

6. living

7. wollowing

8. caring

9. thinking

10. missing?

11. sleeping

A Night To Remember....

Broken-Hearted Girl

HAPPY BELATED KRYSSIE!!!

I just recently got my ear pierced and its killing me. This will be my seventh one, and can you believe Im not done. I want two diamond studs on my right cartilage. I think I spelled it correctly. If not then oh well. Weeks been kind of busy. Wait scratch that I havent been busy having a life, Ive been busy working so I could get money for back to school. Im actually excited about school starting back up. Im more focused then I ever used to be. I know what I have to do and Im ready. Besides that I need a distraction FAST! I just want to forget alot of things and people. Sometimes life is just better leaving behind the past. For once and for all. I dont think I mentioned my friend living with me. Well shes not anymore, my mom made her leave and go to her moms cousins house. Its so close by rochdale its ridiculous. Hope all is well with her and she starts to make moves and not slack off just because she has a roof over head. Yes she has every reason to be thankful but dont mooch like here. Start to build your life. Its the perfect opportunity. I couldnt take it living with her. I guess Im a very private person and I like to be by myself. Since Im so used to it growing up. I just like my own space and no one taking over. I almost forgot to mention this week is like a series of free concerts in the city. Pat Benatar. Blondie. The Donnas. and Gym Class Heroes. I am so going to one of them. Im leaning more towards Pat Benatar and Blondies concert. Since theyre like my fucking Idols. Come on who would miss that concert. Cant wait to go with my peeps. Live life before school takes over. <3

Sooner Than Later- The Dilemma

It was a beautiful day. Like all others. Sun was out. Not a cloud in the sky. I got a call. She was evicted. Had no place to go. I thought as fast as I could. What to do? How can I help her? I gave her my home number. I gave her my house. I gave her a place to stay. Only until she found somewhere else. I thought? What have I gotten myself into. It was all apart of her plan. Stop paying rent. Get kicked out. Go to a friends house. Procrastinate. Mooch. What do I tell her? How do I tell her? This isn’t a permanent residence. This isn’t your new home. Fight for what you had. Fight to stay in youre old place. She shakes her head in disagreement. Bad memories. Negative energy. After all her mother passed. Bitersweet memories of the two of them in the apartment. She wanted to leave behind the past. She wanted a fresh start. As do I for her. But she cannot stay here. She has to find another place to go to. I love her. I want the best. But I cannot live with her. I have to be by myself. Without her. Focus on me. Selfish but true.Truth Hurts. If only I knew what she was going to do. Waiting for an answer. Hopefully the answer will come soon. Sooner than I think. Sooner than Later.

-Kaycee N. Alston

"Back in the day when I was young I'm not a kid nemore......but somedays I still wish i was a kid again"

Lets see how my week has been going....


1. Im sick with a bad cold

2. Can't get my hair done because IM SICK.

3. Fucked up at work. But im getting over it.

4. Finally had the chance to go out with a guy who actually PAID FOR EVERYTHING.

5. Has to find a home for Lily because shes making my mom really sick. Lilys my kitty kat

6. Havent heard from alot of people. Just wondering If theyre still breathing like me.

7. Shaved. Big Mistake

8. Lost my favorite lipstick.

9. Been getting back into my death metal bands

10. Had a blast from jmy past yet again.